Oh man! I wish i could find some time and the mood to write again. Since my father got sick last May and was operated of Prostatic Carcinoma last June, i barely got the patience to sit and update my site. My mind was so occupied of the crisis we faced and still having at this time that i wouldn’t wish even the worst of my enemies to undergo the same mental torture i went through during those last two months. How hard it was to be so far away from the family knowing that my father might not outlive the radical operation he has to undergo. It was inconceivable how a man like my Dad who loves to travel, cook, swim, dance and sing, a man full of laughter and humor, an open mind and arm to run to when we are troubled and problematic, such a man must get sick of cancer! Fortunately, the op was successful even if it means that he has to carry a bag on his side as urinal deposit (his bladder was taken out) for the rest of his life.

I thank God and my friends who shared their prayers for the success of the op and the speedy recovery of my Dad. The sleepless and teary nights are now momentarily gone. The whole family specially my mother is also recovering from the fear, stress and emotional pain we all undergone during this period. I am more a Daddy”s than a Mommy’s girl. But during this difficult time, i found out how lucky am I to have gotten a wonderful and loving mother. She never left my Dad’s side during the entire period of his hospitalization. She never complained even if we knew she barely slept. She nurses my Dad day and night. One time when i called her in the hospital, she only had one wish in her life she told me… to celebrate their 50th wedding anniversary which is in 5 years time. How i cried when i heard that!

The battle is not yet over. Every waking day of my Dad is a victory for us. Although the doctor said that we don’t need to worry anymore, but still, he’s no longer whole. He gets depressed and irritated and we all knew why. He needs time to adjust to that new part of him. And we all hope and pray that the tumor was already history.